brain antipatterns

Since I keep hitting walls whenever I try to learn something, there might be a pattern in my brain response to new stimulus.

2 cases :
- I manage to follow the first lesson, my confidence builds up to the point of shutting down my brain. The second lesson I can't barely understand anything. The end.

- I don't see the point of the subject, my confidence builds down to the point of shutting down my brain. There's no lesson two.

Gotta re-educate this cramped muscle of mine called cortex.